RidculousnessI feel as if I'm walking around in a clown costume.
Life is just a sham.
That's all it's been to me.
Just hiding from others,
not speaking in case I screw up,
doing nothing to help myself.
I can change that.
I'm always walking around in clown shoes.
I'm never the right size to fit into my skin.
I've always been shunned from getting out of the costume.
This time, I'm choosing.
This time, I'm breaking free of these chains that hold me down.
This time, I shall conquer my fears and anxieties.
This time, I will live the way I want to.
FloatingFelling like I'm floating
I dont think you can hear me
Even though I'm screaming your name
I cant stop falling for you
I cant stop remebering what i did for you
I cant stop thinkgin about you
Unnoticed: StrangersThe shadow drifted silently,
Floating around and around.
Alone and feared by most,
It waited for the girl who would never come back.
Its head hung low, its movements slow
Its only words a moan.
Its grief was overpowering
For she died a long while ago.
It frequently watches,
Through the window hoping to play
With the ones who live there happily.
It waits for the first one,
The brave girl who came forward.
Its playmate who shall never return.
One-Sided CoversationWhat does that have to do with anything?
I'm sorry that your heart is sore,
but I had nothing to do with it.
It was all her.
All of it.
Don't blame me like she did.
Don't try to stop me.
I'm going through with this.
I'm really going to end it here.
I've got a knife.
I've got some rope.
I've got some pills.
I've got some words to throw back at you.
I've finally gotten my courage back.
I've finally found you to be gone from my thoughts.
I've finally realized that I don't care anymore.
I've finally found my passion, to help others.
Wow, you really thought I was going to go through with it.
That's so sad, how little confidence you have in me.
I knew I never should have told you.
I'm done with your shit.
I don't need you telling me shit that isn't true anymore.
Fading Away *Part 3Later that Night,
"Are-re you okay, Lily?" Kyle asked, concerned.
"Yeah, I mean why wouldn't I be?"
"Uh, well, just, what happened earlier..... frightened me."
"Oh, well, I tend to do that to people."
"Well, do you, you know, want to talk about it? Uh, cause, I'm, uh, listening."
"Why should I tell my life story to you? You wouldn't care anyways."
"Well, I do care. I care a lot about you. You're all I've got. Lily, you need to realize that. Without you, I'd be dead."
"Well, you aren't exactly a tell all, Kyle. I need to have some confidence in you first, before I start."
"Okay. My parents, well, I don't know much about them. I lived in the facility until my sixteenth year, when I was released a 'stable adolescent.' From there, I left the cities and came here for peace and hopefully, death. But, I found you instead. That's how I ended up here."
"Oh, well that is a bit tragic, you could say. Do you really want to know my story?"
"Yes, I do. I just spilled my guts to you and you're still
Can You Hear Me Yet?can you hear me?
I'm screaming your name
I'm grabbing your hand
I'm trying to get you to notice
You didn't hear me
You didn't see me
You didn't even care about it either
I'm hanging from a rope
I'm bleeding with a hole in my head
I still scream your name
I still want you
I still want you.
Can you hear me yet?
There you go. :/Me: Hello there.
Me: I'm not depressed/moody today.
we are friends right?
Me: I suppose. Hailey's freaking out cause she thinks I'm dating you. It's really awkward.
Jon: Well, you don't sound like you want to be friends so bye.
Me: I would like to be friends with you, but it gets hard for me....
Jon: Ok, Never mind. Not trying to make things difficult for you. I'll just leave you alone like everyone else.
Me: Okay then. I'll be alone again. As always.
Jon: Oh my god. You just said it's "so difficult" for you to be my friend now you're guilt tripping me. You're just like Hailey and them saying they don't want to be my friend and then leaving me. Then add me on here and talk to me.
Me: I have a hard time keeping friends with ANYONE. I'm always alone. Not the greatest party.
Jon: I just gave you the option
to stay my friend
and you just turned
Fading Away *Part 2"I-I remembered something, Lily."
"Well, spit it out. What was it?"
"I remember..... I remember.... Uh..... Now I forgot," kyle said shrugging him shoulders.
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? YOU DO THIS EVERYDAY! YOU THINK YOU REMEMBER SOMETHING THEN YOU FORGET. HOW DO I KNOW YOU'RE TELLING ME THE TRUTH? HOW DO I KNOW THAT YOU REALLY HAVE ALL OF THE MEMORIES FROM THEN?" Lily screamed.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, Lily." Kyle started stuttering again.
"YOU'RE JUST A FRAUD LIKE THE REST OF THEM! YOU LIED TO ME! YOU LIED! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU! I RISKED MY NECK TRYING TO SHOW YOU HOW TO SURVIVE WHEN ALL YOU WANT TO DO IS TURN ME INTO THE FACILITY. GOD I HATE YOU! I MIGHT JUST KILL YOU RIGHT NOW!" Lily continued.
"I'm not Lily. I didn't mean anything by it. I-I just, I see flashes. If you wish to kill me now, go ahead. There's nothing stopping you." Kyle said. He knelt down and leaned his head forward. "Go ahead, Lily. If you wish to kill me, kill me."
Lily knelt down beside him and took his face in he